A Place Nearby

好久没有写过东西了，回家后上网的时间大大减少，之后又开始了实习，更是几天才开一回电脑，好久没看的电视现在成了主流，怀念啊~

在农行的国际业务部实习到现在已经超过了一个星期，这个部门主要负责国际收支结算，和外币有关的都要由此结算核查然后上报至省行，再从省行上报等等。其实并没有什么事情给我做，最多也就是些杂事，银行的业务太特殊，很多东西不能由别人经手。我从一开始在旁边看，到现在能在专用系统中查看业务，有时来人时解答些问题，也算是有点收获吧，不过感受最深的还是外贸业务的复杂性（企业的对外业务是国际部的主要业务来源），单是说把国外来款结汇换成人民币，就又是填单又是盖章的，还不论银行这边要登记的种种材料。从7月14号起国家外汇局针对热钱的流入又实施了新的政策，企业结汇手续更加复杂，由于通知的很突然，这几天各家银行的国际部都手忙脚乱的，一方面要更改调试系统，一方面要与企业和上级部门沟通协调。这也让我实际感受到了国家对于维护金融经济的安全稳定所采取的种种措施，形势很严峻，但相信国家有能力保证我们自己的金融安全。

上班时间是8：30到12：00，14：00到17：30，其他还好，就是中午时间有些短，总是迷迷糊糊地从床上爬起来骑车去上班，真想睡个懒觉啊~~~

 

凌晨4点40分，2008年的euro cup半决赛第二场结束，西班牙3：0战胜俄罗斯，Xavi、Güiza和Silva在下半场分别进球，西班牙将和德国争夺本届欧洲杯冠军。

    kahlil Gibran

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "and what of Marriage, master?"

And he answered, saying:

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.

You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.

Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.

But let there be spaces in your togetherness,

And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another but make not a bond of love:

Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.

Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.

Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,

Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.

For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

Amd stand together, yet not too near together:

For the pillars of the temple stand apart,

And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

 

                            ---------The Prophet

迷上了这首歌...不停的在耳机里重复:

 

人鬼天地万金似慷慨
浮生若梦安载道
唯苦心良在
红颜依惜挥去还复来
生死命注休怨早
殇情暗徘徊
无奈何青春逝去
无奈何江山真易改
情谊无价亦无保
天降仇敌忾
无奈何路回星移
无奈何时运他人宰
钟鸣鼎食散一朝
空守昨日财
山水迷离流花低雾霭
夙愿扁舟寒江钓
风掠须发白

 

 

今年的天气实在是奇怪的很，广东的雨季比之前晚了差不多一个月，然后就是铺天盖地的大雨。端午节下了整整两天的大雨，学校不少地方水排不下去，积得没过了小腿，我的凉鞋就这样在雨中报废了~放假第二天，一大早貌似看见了太阳，于是兴冲冲和朋友去逛街，还没到公交车站就开始下雨，接下来几乎一直在冒雨前进，虽然打着伞（夏天出门必不可少之物，晴天遮阳雨天挡雨），回到学校时还是淋得很惨，裤子湿了大半，鞋子也进水了，可怜我真不该穿长裤和布鞋出门啊……

有了这两双鞋的惨痛经历，我一气之下上淘宝买了四双两块五的特价人字拖，准备当凉鞋穿出门了%·#￥*~—……反正也没指望能穿几年，好歹支撑到放假啊~之所以买这么多，一是便宜，二是这么便宜估计也不会特别结实，三是为了分担十块钱的邮费~~~

买完拖鞋的第二天，我又上淘宝转了，最后一口气买了四件不同颜色的背心和三件吊带……恩，是有些冲动了~不过确实便宜，加上邮费平均才七块钱一件……还好还好，到此为止，没什么想买的了~~

现在东西已经都收到了，相对于价格来说，质量还好。第一次用支付宝，一开始充了100，现在还剩下30，就让它接着剩着吧~

于是爱尔美差说：请给我们谈爱。

他举头望着民众，他们一时静默了。他用洪亮的声音说：

当爱向你们召唤的时候，跟随着他，

虽然他的路程是艰险而陡峻；

当他的翅翼围卷你们的时候，屈服于他，

虽然那藏在羽翼中间的剑刃也许会伤毁你们。

当他对你们说话的时候，信从他，

虽然他的声音会把你们的梦魂击碎，如同北风吹荒了林园。

爱虽给你加冠，他也要把你钉在十字架上。他虽栽培你，他也刈剪你。

他虽升到你的最高处，抚摸你在日中颤动的枝叶，

他也要降到你的根下，摇动你的根柢的一切关节，使之归土。

如同一捆稻粟，他把你束聚起来。

他舂打你使你赤裸。

然后在睡时祈祷，因为有被爱者在你的心中，有赞美之歌在你唇上。

                          ---------纪伯伦《先知》，冰心先生翻译

    kahlil Gibran

Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of love."

And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:

When love beckons to you follow him,

Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you yield to him,

Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.

And when he speaks to you believe in him,

Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.

Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,

So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.

He threshes you to make you naked.

He sifts you to free you from your husks.

He grinds you to whiteness.

He kneads you until you are pliant;

And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All thses things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your hearts, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,

Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,

Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh,but not all of your laughter,and weep,but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."

And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy,directs you course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires , let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

 

                                     ---------The Prophet

 

去凤凰，是很早就有的念头，但真正把它转化为行动，却是个很突然的过程。5月10号去广州考试，考前两天这个念头从脑海闪现，考完回到学校后就着手计划准备。16号去广州坐火车出发，17号早上到达吉首，接着坐汽车去凤凰；同样的路线回程，20号下午的火车，21号中午回到学校。

在凤凰待了四天三夜。

这次旅行，独自一人，也是我第一次自己出游，好在一切平安顺利。

凤凰是个很美丽的小城，当然是在古城范围内，出了这个圈子，它和其他不甚发达的县城没什么不同。我没有参加任何收费的项目，无论是周边的苗寨游还是乘船观沱江，所做的只是走路：绕着古城小巷走，沿着沱江两岸走。去的第二天下起了雨，于是那天只走了3个小时左右——已经是最少的一天了。

古城并不大，挤满了商家店铺和客栈饭馆，还有到处可见的摆摊卖东西的苗族阿妈或是阿婆。游客不少，大部分都是成群结队的，一个人在人群中穿行，却丝毫不觉得突兀，不时停下看看周围的摊位，大部分是仿银饰品和有民族风情的服饰，很吸引女性的眼球~几天时间里，不敢说转过了所有的店铺，但绝对经过了每一家的门前，也经不住诱惑买了些东西回来~还有各种各样的小吃，尤其是夜晚虹桥边的夜市，着实让我尝到了不少当地特色食品。不过个人看来，当地名菜因为是一个人不方便所以没有吃到；小吃品种虽多，但没什么给我留下特别深刻印象的；倒是街上卖的冰甜酒味道很不错，是糯米酿的，完全没有酒味，冷藏过后甜甜的很好喝，临走时我还去买了一杯。

对旅游者来说，凤凰是一个可以悠闲生活的地方。也许是因为开发的晚，当地人即使是做生意相对也是淳朴的，尤其是和苗族阿婆买东西，价钱很容易商量，有时候简直让人不忍心再和她们砍价。在凤凰的日子里，每天到处乱转，然后回客栈看抗震救灾的直播，不用和任何人商量，完全由我自己安排。之前一些恼人的情绪，在这样的环境中慢慢地不再来袭，短短几天，旧貌新颜。

回来后好友说我的神情状态和去以前大不一样，看来这次不虚此行。在这里要谢谢她一直以来对我的支持鼓励还有安慰，无论前路如何，我们都是彼此坚强的后盾。

终于下了决心，用最惨烈的方式结束这一切，决绝的让我无论如何都没有想到。

在同一个地方跌倒两次，是我不够聪明不够坚决。这一次，彻底放弃两年来的纠结。

从今天起，真的要大步往前走了，我要开始新生活。

把过去的一切抛在脑后，与我何干！

未来才是属于我的。

My whole new life

Little darlin' don't you see the sun is shining
Just for you, only today
If you hurry you can get a ray on you, come with me, just to play
Like every humming bird and bumble bee
Every sunflower, cloud and every tree
I feel so much a part of this
Nature's got me high and it's beautiful
I'm with this deep eternal universe
From death until rebirth
This corner of the earth is like me in many ways
I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play
On the face of it I'm blessed
When the sunlight comes for free
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
So inspired of that there's nothing left to do or say
Think I'll dream, 'til the stars shine
The wind it whispers and the clouds don't seem to care
And I know inside, that it's all mine
It's the chorus of the breakin' dawn
The mist that comes before the sun is born
To a hazy afternoon in May
Nature's got me high and it's so beautiful
I'm with this deep eternal universe from death until rebirth
You know that this corner of the earth is like me in many ways
I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play
On the face of it I'm blessed
When the sunlight comes for free
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
This corner of the earth, is like me in many ways
I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play
On the face of it I'm blessed
When the sunlight comes for free
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me

 

偶然的机会听到这首歌，其实曲调并不是我的口味，但歌词深深吸引了我……想象一个晴朗的天气，躺在无人的山坡上，蓝天，阳光，鸟鸣，花香，于是忘记烦恼，抛弃忧伤，因为我知道，on the face of it I'm blessed,this corner of the earth it smiles at me...